money (& sex)

C. got a part time job yesterday. I should be excited because she has been saying that she would get one for a long time now. But I feel bad that she has to work a second job. I wish that we didn't have to, but right now, we do... She will be working at Dick's. She's a sporty gal, so she is looking forwardf to it. Hopefully it will only be for a little while... we'll see. We are making a "plan" to pay off some of (or all of) out bills so that we don't need an extra job. with me taking this new job - even though I am home and we are saving on daycare, travel, etc. - it's a little tighter than we would like. and, even though we made it through last year when c. lost her job, i am still stressing about it. money is definitely a stressor in our relationship. we don't talk about it much. i try, but it's never a good time, according to c. c's reaction is that "everything will be fine." mine is "everything will be fine" doesn't pay the bills. i guess we are on opposite ends of that one - it can be a good thing, just sometimes i would like a little validation for the way that i feel. and money is like sex - it's one of those things that isn't always appropriate to talk about. at least, with sex, we both agree - sleep is what we really need right now. ;) and, like i have said, we really would like another baby, so that's really pushing us to get this money stuff in order. i know that there will always be bills, i would just like to get rid of the ones that have been hanging around for awhile... does anyone out there have any words of wisdom? any financial planner-types with the answer?

there's my money rant... thanks for listening.

confession

i love justin timberlake. love him and LOVE sexy back. even k. loves him - he dances whenever it comes on the radio. :)

we're aunties!

our nephew is here! he arrived, via c section, at 7:32 pm. he is 22 inches long and 8lbs 7 oz! we can't wait to meet him! my sister is doing well. she is out of it, but i can understand that! i am glad that she is sleeping - she has been very anxious. it sounds like to c section went well, too - my bro-in-law said that the baby was born about 5 minutes after they started! and she didn't feel a thing! the way that it should be!
with him being born, i want to be a new mommy again! it's amazing - i want this now like i did before. i hope that we are able to find a spern donor through friends or friends of friends. it will make things a little easier, i think... i ovulated today! i am glad that i am still so ini tune to my body. i got horrible cramps this evening. as soon as i felt them, the mood swings that i have been experiencing this past week suddenly made so much sense! i had an ovulation predictor kit left from before, so i took the test, and it was positive! even though my cycle can be very irregular, i can always tell when i am ovulating and i always get my period 12 days afterwards. at least there is some regularity to it. i really hope that we have a donor and can start trying come december. i would love another child. i can only imagine what that would be like. i love k. so much, that having another child to love would be an amazing thing!

aunties-to-be

yep, we are going to be aunties today! my sis is in labor right now!!!!

not gonna write much because i wrote a post and it got deleted! ugh!

anyway, with the new babe and having spent time with friends' babies, we so want another! we have started looking for a donor - this time through friends... the cost at banks has gone up so much! so, if anyone knows of a nice healthy guy in eastern MA or RI, please let us know!

the little guy is up form his nap, so i am gonna run and get him. i will fill y'all in on what's happeneing a little later! and tell you more about my nephew!!!!!

lots to tell...

First... it's Sept. 11th. It's been a sad day. I have had to drive a lot for work today, so I was listening to NPR. I don't listen to it often since K. yells when we aren't listening to music or singing... :) All day, people were sharing their stories about where they were on Sept. 11, 2001. I remember that day - and then just sitting in front of the televions and watching what happened over and over and over. Until I just had to shut it off. And now Bush is on tv again. If we had cable, we would change the channel. I guess we can just shut the tv off, but we can't. I don't want to hear it. He is so stupid and arrogant. And stupid.
There's my vent...


So, it's been a while since I have posted... and I actually have lots to tell. First... last Thursday was one of my work from home days. I did work! I am getting a lot done when I am at home - it's great! My sis-in-law asked if I could go over and take her puggle puppies out for a walk because she was going to be gone all day. So, we did - she lives nearby, K. likes the pups. I do too - they are cute, but I am not a puppy person. On our way over, K. was hungry, I was frazzeled, he was crying, so I WENT TO WENDY'S DRIVETHRU! I cannot believe that I did it. To make it worse, I got the KID'S MEAL with the toy. I have given him chicken nuggets a couple of times before... he has had about 2 french fries in his 17 months here, but I NEVER thought I would be getting food for my TODDLER at Wendy's or any other fast food place! I know that it is not the worst thing that I could do, but I am still in disbelief. I confessed to C. today. She just laughed at me. That was one of the things that I "lectured" her on before he was born - how we will not give him any fast food.
So, we get to Auntie's house and take the pups out for a walk. The pups squat and poop, and then K. squats and he starts pooping. It was quite a sight. I really wish that I had my camera for that. :)

Another thing that has happened since I have started working from home. On the ornings that K. is home with me, we have breakfast, and then we come into the living room and watch TV. WOW. I watch more tv now than I ever have! again, we do not have cable, so we are watching Sesame Street and Thomas the Train on PBS, which makes me feel a little bit better. BUT, after Sesame Street was over, they thanked McDonald's for contributing to their show!!!! I am filling my son with tv and fast food! AAAAHHHHHH!!!! Who have I become????? where did the progressive lesbian who i once was, go?????

i realize that if anyone else was telling me this story, i would say RELAX! a little bit is ok. and i believe that. i cannot keep k. away from the tv forever. and there is nothing wrong with the tv - i just don't want him to become a couch potato. same thing with fast food - a little bit is ok - and we make healthy choices - he drinks milk and had the yogurt instead of fries... i just did not expect to do those things before he was 2 years old.

motherhood can be tough sometimes. i really feel like i am being pulled in every direction... i guess that's why wendy's has a drive-thru. ;)

"Cah."

That's K.'s new favorite word. "cah." It scares me that he is already dropping his r's. We may have to move out of MA if this continues. ;)
It's very cute. He looks out the window, points to my car and says it. When we are driving on the highway, he must say "cah" about 100 times. It cracks me up.
He also knows most of his body parts, too. The other night after bathtime, I asked him where his belly button was. He showed me. And then he proceeded to lift up my shirt and stick his finger in my belly button. Over and over and over. And I have this thing with my bb. I don't like people to touch it. Not even C. Not even me. I try to avoid it. When I was pregs, I was so afraid of it poppinig out. Thankfully, it didn't. Anyway, K. kept sticking his finger in my belly button, I would start laughing, he would laugh, and it was a 15 minute laugh-fest. It was one of the best mommy-moments that I have had so far. :)
It's amazing. He is all of a sudden talking! Everyone said it would happen and it has. He loves saying "ba-by-eee." That's cute. And "mom-mii" for me and "mum" for C. So frigging cute. I can go on and on.
The other day when we got home - I had just picked him up from daycare - C. was standing in the driveway. All of a sudden I hear these little giggles coming from the back seat. He was so happy to see his Mama! Everything is just so cute! I ahve never used that word so much before...

Question for any of the 'rents reading this...

Have you ever felt like you wanted another child, but didn't really want to go through those earlier stages again? I would love another child - AT SOME POINT...NOT NOW! - and C. really wants another babe - like now! But I am not sure I want to go through all of "that" again. I am pretty sure that I would enjoy it, but I am so glad that K. is so good. Bedtime is easy. Weaning him off the bottle was easy. Taking the binky away was easy. I can go on and on. I am sure these feelings are normal, I would just like to hear others' points of view. Please share!

Sleepy time for me!